Wow...post...after almost half a year...

Sa mga di nakakakilala sa akin...ayos lang 'yan. Natutuwa ako at hindi pa expired ang account ko sa website na ito.

So on with the story...

Hanep ang agos ng buhay lately; kung saan saan ako natangay. Maraming nasirang plano, maraming nasayang na pera, at maraming nakalimutang gawain. Nakaka-banas lately...masarap magtanong, masarap magtaka.

Sa dami ng plano kong hindi ko naisakatuparan dahil sa mga pangyayaring hindi ko kontrolado, napapatanong ako...

May silbi ba ang pagpaplano para sa sarili mo kung lahat ng bagay sa buhay mo ay ayon sa gusto ng Panginoon para sa iyo?

May silbi ba ang paglalatag ng daang iyong tatahakin sa buhay kung anytime e pwede kang i-liko ng tadhana?

Mas maganda bang umupo na lang at maghintay dahil ng mangyayari dahil lahat naman ng pangyayari ay ayon sa "grand plan"?

...tsk, tsk, tsk...hindi ako nagrereklamo, nagtatanung lang...

nasa konsepto rin naman na tayo ng "grand plan e" marahil naicp nu na rin minsan...at naitanong sa sarili

1. "bakit kaya may nauna sa aking nakabili ng na iyon?"

3. bakit kaya hindi ako pinayagang ?

marahil narinig ninyo na rin, na ang gusto lang ng Panginoon para sa atin ay ang pinaka "the best"...

pero aaminin ko...kung minsan ayaw ko ng "the best"...

minsan gusto ko lang na matupad ang mga plano ko, makuha ang babaeng gusto ko, at magawa ang gusto ko...

nais kong ipaalala na hindi ako isang kontrabidang gusto kayong kunin sa "dark side"...gusto ko lang mag-share ng mga konsepto sa totoong buhay kung saan matatagpuan ninyo ang sarili ninyong nagtatanong, nagtataka, nawawala, at nahihirapang isagawa ang kagustuhan ng Panginoon...

oo, tama ka...

ngayon ako rin ay nagtatanong, nagtataka, nawawala, at nahihirapan...

gusto mo ba akong tulungan?

I had to take a while, sit down and reflect on my life once in a while...I open my usual session with God, under the starry night, staring at the black sky illuminated by the moon...talking to myself

Hey God? What should we talk about right now?

How about the pain of not getting what I want? Of letting go and accepting?

They say that you only an the best for us, sometimes it's hard to think that way when...

1.My Personal Computer just crashed and I had to buy a new motherboard and hard disk

2. I just lost my 1000 peso bill and had to ask for another for this week's allowance

3. My pet dog ran into the highway and got hit by a car and died

4. I failed a subject and had to repeat it for another semester

5. The girl I like and felt like "she is the one" already is seeing someone

What is the best for me anyway? Can I not know it any earlier? Because if there is one thing most people lack, it's patience...

It's hard...to be thinking like that when you want something beautiful, something right, something worth everything in your life...and you can't have it...you can't have him/her...

It's hard to be thinking like that when painful things often comes in our life....

"God, why must you say your words so that only a few can understand it? so that it's hard to live by them?"

And then I thought hard...thinking that my views are diverse and critical, I stopped and thought that:

Nothing is more beautiful than what God wants you to have, nothing is more precious than a person God offers you, nothing is better than what God wants for you...

Because God's words are treasures worth the effort of critical understanding and dedication...

God's words are so precious that only a few will dare seek them, understand them.

Because if everyone is a shepherd then what will the shepherd lead?

"God, please make most, if not all people, think like that...like I do..."

Because I'll wait and always accept what is in front of me...because I know...YOU ONLY WANT THE BEST FOR ME...

Because I know that it is going through pain and sorrow that I will best understand your words...

Goodnight dude...thanks for the night...I'll talk to you again soon...

AMEN....