Intended Readers: Adults and Teens of Higher Comprehension

I have 2 unusual terms here:
1. the common view - what I define as a "normal persons" action and reaction, perspective and belief, the routines and habits

2.transcend - to go beyond or exceed

Am I being too conceited? No, as often as I always tend to be seen, I am not in anyway a conceited guy who thinks I have achieved the "enlightenment" or "nirvana", I am just a regular human, bestowed with this gift of diversely seeing things

It feels good to be different, but loneliness and isolation is the price.

It feels good to see things in a different light than most people, to be gifted with a questioning nature, to view yourself as a spectator observing how things and people move in this world...it feels so good...

Loneliness and isolation, I am willing to pay the price for a wisdom unlike any other...but God was so kind as to not even ask so much of the price...I have my friends...and there came Brevs; God made it known to me, that I need not pay the price to gain this gift, this view...

God gave me the option, but I took only a half of it

I started to search for someone with this gift, someone with this view, someone close to my age, someone who can share things with me...someone like me, a female version of me (must I mention I looked for someone who looks good?)

And in my desperation and frustration, I started to think that I never really was meant to interact with people, that no one can understand me...that I have to eventually pay the price...the burdens of being different...

So, how does it feel to have transcended the common view at this age?

It feels good, yet it doesn't feel right...and more often than not, I feel empty and incomplete

Will I even will someone to save me? What am I looking for? Help me...