New year had passed and the call to change for the best is getting stronger. I really don't know what to change, may be I have a lot of things to fix but I don't know where to start. The very thought of wanting for change is a good start for this year but, the challenge is a big mountain and a hand from someone will be appreciated. I am getting used to many things but it doesn't mean that I should relax. Change is constant and changing for the best is the call to every believer of Christ. May be attitude and perception toward many things are the call for me. I should expect less and give more. I realized that I had a lot of blessings this year and I should give back many of those or should I say "share my blessings". Well, God thank you for 2008 of adventure; the ups and downs and all the trials that made me aware and provided me lessons to learn. I will not make any promise of change but I know that I will have to do it. Good luck to me and to all who desire to change for the best. The call is be the best because the master is "the Best".

This night will be the celebration of Christ's birth, but little number of people will remember the true reason of this celebration. Commerce is the center of this celebration this present time and it is inevitable for people to shop until they exhaust all they can consume and buy. For me, family will be the true meaning of Christmas. The funny thing is,I have no one this Christmas. In fact, I am spending my time talking to this machine. Wow, I am miserable. The thought of the true meaning of Christmas will always be in my heart, the coming true part is yet to come. To all the Breviarians in heart, in spirit, in presence, in talent, in belief, in disgust, in doubt, in irony, in hatred, in love, in faith, in culture and etch...Merry Christmas. May the love that we all deserve be with us always. Happy birthday pareng Kristo!!!

It is best to feel at peace rather than be occupied by many earthly things. I feel better now that I am relieved from work. Although I know that it will entail of consequences in the coming days. Well, God knows where I stand and I know that he knows my best interest. I really wanted to stay busy...I mean to stay working but, Other people tell me otherwise. I was so confused for more than a week and I really don't know if I made the right decision. Sometimes I feel that working or being busy in church agenda is not being productive. May be I am wrong and may be I am right somehow. I tell to other people whose in trouble that, may be God has other plans for you. May be he wanted to see you doing things other than doing church work. I was just reminded of my values' teacher who told me that if you are caught between two Good things, You should choose what is for God. He is the source of Goodness and it should be returned to him. But in reality it does not work like that. In reality, your are being test of what is your priority? Well, it is sad to say that I never priorities God, what I do is what I know will do Good for me. I do ask God to guide me but I don't know if I did follow his suggestions.

Life is really complex and it is worse because of the freedom that granted to us. In times like this, I opt to pray at least to keep my sanity because it really stress me out to think of this life's complexity. What I know is that Jesus understand what I am feeling right now but I know what he wants me to do and it is hard to follow your will Lord. Give me time at least Lord. Please!!!

Dear God,

Thank you for all the wonder creation that you entrust to us and for letting us live despite of our sinfulness. Sometimes we just ignore those simple blessings that we receive everyday, but today I simply want to thank you for all what I have.

Life was never created perfect but with your grace, it can be one. Life is complicated, but with your guide it can organize. Sometimes we lost hope to live but in your presence you give us security.

Thank you Lord!

Sometimes, even you give all your effort to keep and strengthen your faith, still you know that it is not enough. Everything good that you experience suddenly disappear and what you see in front of you is the gloomy face of Hell. You start to question around you and wonder if there's meaning to all of these things.

May be, I am confused today about something and everything. May be I forgot to communicate to him that's why I am confused. I ought to listen to him but my anxiety does not permit me to stay calm and be silent. Many times of the 10 -year association with this ultimate one, I noticed that I felt this same feeling I am feeling right now. I even try to disassociate my self to him but he does not permit me. Although I am longing for something I didn't find it to any earthly thing or experience. Still I run back to this ultimate one.

Indeed, I am vulnerable to my relationship to this friend of mine. A far-away friend that I only noticed when I am in trouble and feeling sad and broken. I don't know how many years will he lend me to find my destined place, but whatever happen I will stick on you cause when I am lost, you guide me to the right path and when I am down you lift up my weary soul.

kung musika ang paguusapan
Si shobe ay di masasapawan
pagtipa sa gitara'y di matatawaran
Kaya lagi siyang nangingibabaw

mapa-radyo, Tv man o Salpakan
siya ay laging maaasahan
basta para sa Diyos ang awitan
Di ka bibiguin kailan man

Sa ugali tunay na mabait
kahit sa buhay ay minsa'y may pait
Lumaban sa buhay laging giit
Pagdarasal ay laging dawit

Ang tulang ito'y upang mabitbit
taos pusong pagbati ang sambit
maligayang bati ang melodiya ng awit
ang dasal ay pagpapala ng langit!

happy bithday shobe...he..he

Last Sunday's service was a bit good.As always, most of the members was late?(bago pa ba yan?). May be we are really "committed", committed to be always late. It is just a manifestation of the halfheartedness of most of the members when it comes to the service. May be we should rededicate this so called service, instead of going to Sunday's service, each must go to be of service to one another and of course to God. Every body is guilty about this issue of punctuality but as church man and woman, I guess we have the capability of doing something about this. It is about respecting each other's time.

See you next Sunday and hope to see improvement with the time keeping. With the
restructuring that transpired last Sunday to the leadership hope it will make a difference.

This is just an observation and I'm not pointing fingers because each of us have the responsibility as members to make every aspiration and direction of the group into reality. Lets make it happen! God bless to my fellow Breviarians.